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Yesterday was a good day although i spent alot of money on my daughter. They are very expensive you know. I talked to a few old friends that i havent talked to in a while just to catch up. I bought a flash drive so that i could save all my angels pictures on it. Her dad gets her on saterday yikes. I dont like that idea but right now there is nothing i can do about it. I love how he is nice to me then he gets her and he is a complete asshole. I am waiting on child support but i am about to call the lady and tell her i havent recieved anything today yet. So he may be locked up and not getting her this weekend you never know ill have to update everyone on that later. So anyways i guess ill chat later.

The Weekend

So my weekend was pretty good. I was out of town that is why i have not been able to blog lately. I went to see my fiances aunt and uncle. They were pretty interesting i must say. They were really nice to me and i met there son. He was cute and funny he was funnier than half the comedians on comedy central. My daughter had alot of fun there as well. We finally set a wedding date i believe it will be May 11,2013. Things may change between now and then but we believe that is the date. Hopefully no more pregnancy's so i can fit in a dress. We got along great over the weekend and i decided that baby daddy was a dork and hated him. He still hasnt sent me my daughters insurance card yet. He is supposed to get her this weekend and im not looking forward to it. I miss her when she is gone. It would help if they would tell me how my daughter is doing when they have her but they dont and that gets on my nerves. I dont want baby daddy back i jsut want to check on my daughter and see how she is doing. I cant believe it is already time to start looking at birthday stuff. She will be 1 year old in may. Yikes!!! I am going to go meet my fiances family next month. We are leaving on the 16th so i doubt i will be blogging then. I want to kind of keep it a secret from everyone you know a place where i can go. I can look back at this and track my feelings and how i felt about certain situations. I also promised my fiances sister that i would stop smoking idk how that is going to go but i can try right. Yikes!!! Well i guess i am off of here for a little bit to go fix some lunch smoke and call home. Thanks for reading and please follow!!!

Baby Daddy and Child Support

Ok so i talked to my case worker today for child support. She informed me that he will be paying 159 and some change a month. Which sucks but it is knocked down because of travel we are 15 hours away from each other. Get this shit he doesnt have to pay back child support. So therefore i supported my child for the first 8 months of her life by myself without any help and he still gets to see her. I understand she is mine and i love taking care of her and buying her things i just thought it would be nice for her dad to help some ya know? Then i find out that he has to pay by the 25th of every month. So get my money in one lump sum. Good for me right but its the 23rd and i havent seen any money at all. So im trying to find out what i do if he is late. Nobody will answer the damn phone its like hello does anyone work here?? Im getting a laywer where i live and taking him back to court anyways. Maybe i can get this shit straight. I am already on medicine for panic attacks i mean and this is stressing me out to where i think i need stronger doses. I mean really. I cant wait to get all this figured out. In the mean time me and my fiance are doing good. Me and his mom had a talk and now we are ok i think. He means alot to me. He has been there through alot with me and im very happy and thankful for that. I know my fiance will most likely never read this but if he ever does i want him to know that i love him and kairi very much :). Until later byes...........

Nobody Can Break Us Up

So i know i havent posted lately there has been alot going on since last post. I have gotten into an arguement with my fiance's mom. She just knows how to push my buttons. Is it just me or mother in laws are just out there to get you. I mean those who have good ones be lucky and proud. Its like your taken there little boy away from them. I mean come on he has someone in his life to fill that spot that you have had for so many years. Back off lady i will take care of him and make sure that he is ok. I will not hurt him. Its like everyone is trying to break us up. I got to stay strong and know that he is mine and nobody can take him away. I mean even my ex (baby daddy) is trying to break us up. I mean really you didnt want to be with me when i was with you but now all of a sudden you want me. Hells no thats crazy. I love my fiance more than anything but sometimes it makes me wonder if im in the right place doing the right thing. I mean i left my job and my family to move to him. I did it to protect my daughter. I know sounds ridiculous i know. If it wasnt for my ex trying to get my daughter and making my family testify against me in court i would still be there. Now i am 10 hours away from home. Nobody to talk to and i cant trust anyone these days. You never know who is going to turn on you. I just gotta keep believing that one day it will get better. Me and my fiance are happy but i cant help but to think what if. Those 2 words will ruin your life if you let them. Sometimes i miss my baby daddy but then again he goes and does something stupid to make me hate him again. I would never leave my fiance to go back to him. Its just i felt like if i would have tried harder to make it work and make him stay that i wouldnt have this much stress in my life. I am tired of arguing with everywhere i just wish people could get along. I also love how when you tell the truth nobody believes you. That just doesnt make since i hate for people to tell me im lying and im telling the truth. I mean maybe i need some anger management or something. There has to be something wrong with both parties of arguements right?? Im just not going to let people bother me anymore and do anything to keep my man. He loves me alot and doesnt want to loose me so why cant people just see that we are happy and he loves me and to leave me alone?? Oh well until next time......... 

Pretty Little Liars and Other Things

So i am watching pretty little liars cause i have missed the last few weeks its pretty interesting. I mean i want to know who A is. Things are getting pretty interesting. I mean Aria is getting into some deep shit by seeing ezra again and spencer is related to alysons brother. I mean what is going on and now hannah is in trouble again but whats new there. Then emily is black mailing the school oh wow. Anyways i just layed my daughter down for a nap and had some pizza. I got into an arguement with fiances mom last night trying to tell me how to raise my daughter and telling me im keeping him away from family. I dont do that never even said he couldnt see his family i mean his family is 10 hours away. Along with mine. The only reason we havent been to see them is because he is working all the time and we dont have the funds to do it. Now that it is tax season we can :) We only went to see my family because i had court. I was in a custody battle over my daughter obviously i won. Her dad is a complete ass i mean he never calls to check on his daughter at all but yet he wants to take me to court to take her away. Is he crazy?? Anyways write later PLL is getting really interesting.

Complicated Mess

I am starting this blog because my other was an epic fell. I wanted to try blogging not because everyone these days is doing it but because diaries just dont work anymore. I mean come on people can get into them and read them. Then spill out all your secrets right. If your a kid in high school you know how bad that must suck. I dont really know what my blog will be about i guess whatever comes to my mind at the time i decide to type. It might be about my crazy ass ex better known as baby daddy, it could be about my daughter, my love life (yes im engaged) and or just crazy random things that come to my strange mind. I may do quotes from time to time and yes i may ask for opinions. I dont expect to get alot at first cause i know it takes time to build a fan club of bloggers waiting and wanting to see what happens next. I may right about movies or music. I promise to right in my blog everyday if not a few times a day. This is my place that i am going to come to..to vent about whatever i need. To yell and cuss if i may. Dont judge me i wont judge you. If you follow my blog i promise to follow yours. You ask me questions or comment i promise to answer them in a timely manner. I may be silly one day and pissed the next post. Thats because my life is complicated but i love my life and wouldnt trade it for the world. So thats a little about my posting i hope you enjoy reading them :). Have a good day :)